I ramble, rant and rave

. Check list - Engagement Day .

2012-01-17T20:27:00.002+08:00

Hello.
Happy New Year diary. Hope it's still not too late to wish you all a Happy New Year!
I used to write bout events of each year but I decided not to write for 2011.
I guess my previous post sort of like covers what happened last year - the major
events. :)

Anyway, I've been procrastinating a lot on my Check list! first up, this post is
check list for my Engagement day - as scheduled next month, 26th February.

1. Theme (done)
2. My baju kurung (done)
3. Mini dais
(still in discussion, its a DIY dais though, Sara's working on the paper flowers :) Thank you so much Sara! You're THE best! )
4. Hantaran (haven't got all the stuff yet)
5. Food / Caterer (done)
6. Favours (still pending)
7. Photographer (this one prolly would be family members / close friends )
I'm not planning on hiring any professional photographer for my E-day.

What else eh?

That's all I can think of at the moment. I'm workin' on it. This should be a
very simple ceremony, nothing over the top. I dont want it to be over the top!
Haha, actually, most of it, my mother is working on it. I only tell her what I
want for the ceremony and she'll get on to it.

And once I'm done with the engagement, I'll go for the Kursus Kahwin and get other important documents done asap!

I have approximately 7 months left, clock's ticking!

X

. It's official! .

2011-12-12T20:10:00.003+08:00

Dont know where to start, I've stopped blogging for more than 6 months!
Just when Hadi asked me "what happened to your blog? have you stopped blogging?", I was so sure of myself, so I said "yeah, I have stopped blogging" I wasn't on a long hiatus, I just thought I'd never want to scribble my blog anymore. The thought of it makes me think that I actually shouldnt stop blogging, I can write whatever I want and whenever I want, right? aha.

Anyways, I have been so busy with God knows what, so occupied ever since I started working in Miki which is a good thing actually. I quit Reliance 9 months ago and found a new job in Cyberjaya. I'm still in the tourism line though, the new company is good. love the environment and my job. so no complaint at the moment. everything seems good and I hope it'll remain good for a long term.

My Saturdays were occupied with French class few months back, I had the chance to
learn French again but then again, due to packed schedule on Saturdays, I had
to stop. Sigh.

Life is treating me well, Alhamdulillah. I am truly grateful for everything that I have in life right now. I am a fan of life, life CAN actually be better or good if we think it is! Of course, problems do occur once in a while, sometimes we all do get
hiccups along the way but I guess, it all can be solved. Insha'Allah. Nothing comes easy and handy.
Everyone has to go through some hurdles in life.

Moving on. Here comes the exciting part (doesnt matter if it doesnt excite you but I AM TRULY excited! HA-HA-HA) I am getting married NEXT YEAR! INSHA'ALLAH!! it's official and I dare to say it here. Not hoo-ha-ing for the wrong reason, I honestly have not thought about settling down at this age, I mean like 24? when I was younger (as in my school days), I always thought I'll be getting married at the age of 27 to 30! Kid you not. I was so afraid that no guy would ever wanted to marry me, so all in my mind was to study hard, get good grades, do what I like and most importantly, have a career. I guess, I accomplished most of it except for getting good grades, haha. I wasn't so much of a brilliant student back in school days, very average type of girl and not outstanding. BUT Imma good girl cause I have never skipped school for no apparent reason! HAHA.

So back to the main story, life pretty much changed after I met Hadi (my boyfie), we never talked bout marriage until we both started working and all I remember was we were NOT so serious about getting married ( OR MAYBE, at least I WAS THE ONE WHO'S NOT serious when it comes to this subject, MARRIAGE. )

Hadi constantly telling me that he wanted me to be his partner for life. I am flattered of course! We've known each other for 5 years (and counting)..it was only him in my mind and no one else I could think of when it comes to settling down.
So we both decided to get married next year, I guess it is never too soon, right? ;)

We had the merisik ceremony on 6th November, last month. Alhamdulillah everything
went well. The engagement ceremony will be on 26th February 2012, insha'Allah!
We sort of have everything planned out but still TOO soon to tell. Will update
this blog as frequent as I can.

In addition to this, my besties in Dubai will be back in Malaysia on my big day! * IM SO HAPPIE! * ROLLING ON THE FLOOR. HI YAH! HEHE. Pretty much excited to see them both.

That's all for now and I hope you’ll pray it be a smooth journey and an everlasting relationship for us! Ameen! X

. Hello blog .

2011-12-12T20:05:00.000+08:00

Where do I begin?

It has been awhile!

. Of love life .

2011-05-02T00:41:00.000+08:00

I bet that the 'Royal Weding' fever is still on for some of us..
I just finished watching the movie of Kate&William..
Of course, the actors weren't Prince William & Kate Middleton themselves, it was played by a bunch of British actors in that movie and based on a true story, on Kate&William's.
It disclosed on how they met and how did their love bloomed.. It was sweet. Kate never thought that she would be in love with that future King of Britain.. hehe.

This reminds me of my own love life, how it all happened and bloomed till today.
Bf and I (our relationship) started off with this very weird kind of love life, it's hard to define what that 'weird' really means here but yeah, it was weird because we seldom talk even though we are already in a relationship, it took us few months to really talk to each other and that was also a process of getting to know each other, one thing for sure is that we just had instinct that tells us we both feel safe around each other. Yes, safe. :)

Well, honestly, at first, It was kind of sad a case for me I think, prolly cause we were both too fragile at that time, I was ditched by my ex bf when I was in form 5.. Oh yes, I was too young to be in love at that time but i was also too heartbroken to be left without a word. :/ I never look at men the same way again until I met him (my bf), haha. I'm not being dramatic here but this is what I feel..

So we went from not so much talking and till a lot of talking, you know, it developed from one stage to other different stages..that's how it bloomed..

Anyways, I'm happy to say that, I'm so thankful that bf and I are still together till today. I hope this one lasts.

P/S; it feels so good to blog but then again, this only happens when i have the mood to scribble. :P

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. Pour que tu m'aimes encore .

2011-03-06T19:57:00.005+08:00

dédié à mes proches (dont know if I got this right?, it has been awhile, my french is so rusty lah!)

enjoy loves! x

Chronicles of 2010

2011-01-08T17:43:00.003+08:00

Im a few days late for the chronicles of 2010 of my life, it's just something that I usually jot down and reminisce all the good events of each year ever since I blogged.

Another great year has passed by, 2010 had been really a great year to me. Allow me to recap the best moments of my life in year 2010;

March - study trip to Paris, Foix & Toulouse with fellow collegemates. it was such an eye opening experience to me, travelling abroad has always been an eye opening experience to me.. it pays to travel! hihi. this trip was the best trip i ever had with my collegemates. made more friends and got bonded with the roommates, we went from hi-bye friends to now close friends. ah, it was such a nice experience to get to know all of them actually, i love my crazy girls. they mean so much to me.

May - my parents celebrated their 29 years of wedding anniversary and little Iris turned one :) Iris is such a sweetheart now.

June - completed my bachelor degree in Tourism Management course, yes, finally! made it again this time though it wasnt as good as last two years. haha. nevermind!

July - i turned 22. family and i had a wonderful thai dinner on my birthday. received many wishes, it was a quiet birthday with family still i had fun and totally loved it.

October - my graduation day was held on the 31st october. finally! i get to jump in the robe whilst holding a scroll in my hand. lol. very cheesy and lame.

November - Job hunting.

December - London trip!! ah, this has to be the best trip with my family..was an awesome trip and there's definitely has to be next trip to London! last but not least, got myself a job.. a proper job.. I'm now attached to Reliance Travel.. :)
Thank you Allah swt for all his blessings.

Hope you all had a great year too. I'm looking forward to another wonderful year of 2011! I'd also like to convey my apologies to everyone that I know, sorry for any of my wrongdoings and of course, more positive thoughts for this year! let's banish away of any ill feelings, hatred and animosity. positivity always.

it's obvious that i'm runnin out words to write for now. hehe. cheers!

Happy New Year

2011-01-08T17:27:00.004+08:00

I hope its still isnt too late to wish everyone A Happy New Year 2011! May all of you be blessed with good health, good wealth, success and happiness on this new year.

Hope all of you had your resolutions drawn out for this new year as well. I'm striving for mine, hope to surpass all my goals that I've set for myself this year.

God bless. Cheers!

. A cancer .

2010-12-27T11:01:00.003+08:00

I've just realized how much of emotional posts of happy, sad, rage, rant, love and etc I have here in my blog. Maybe I can say that I am an emotional freak..even the Cancer horoscope also tells us that Cancer is the most sensitive and emotional of all the 12 signs. *sighs. I can never tell if being so emotional is a good thing or not.

I know if I get too upset with something, I'll have all this rage burning inside me and at the end I'll cry to let it out, once I'm done with all that, I'll make myself forgive the person or any matter that happens.. but you'll hardly see that I can forget it.. still, I'm trying to overcome not to hold grudges on people who do/say bad things to me but to just forgive him/her and let it go.. very tough but still trying!

But this is what I am, most of the traits explained in the horoscope are true and I'm not trying to be superstitious taking all these things for real but you know, sometimes we just can't help but to believe in it, right?

More traits of a Cancer is sentimental, sensitive, and needs to have a sense of security. I'm not sure bout the security part cause so far, I have never felt insecure of what I'm doing, well, maybe sometimes?? hehe.

and I know I can be intensely romantic and have a vivid imagination. But I never cling on towards my boyfriend feeling needed all the time, I'm very much of an independent girl too. But most importantly is I'm very much of a family oriented person and nothing else matters when it comes to my family and my home.

Something very predictable about myself is that, when I get emotional, I blog and when I'm disappointed with humans, I blog too but that doesn't change anything. I still blog when I'm happy or feel loved. But right now, I'm just happy and busy recapping the best moments of 2010 in my life.

Cheers.

.London.

2010-11-14T00:44:00.001+08:00

London's calling!!

I'm psyched! Can't wait =) it's my much needed vacay.

P/S: been busy with my part time job at the moment, still haven't had the time to upload all my graduation pics on Facebook ;'(

More updates later!

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. Fake .

2010-10-10T00:25:00.000+08:00

You're absolutely fake and trying so hard to fit in, it makes me nauseous!

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. All I can do is to forgive .

2010-10-08T18:34:00.002+08:00

It was just two days ago where I was ranting about a bitch in my blog (note to nemesis).

This morning, when I was browsing through emamagem website, I came across with an article titled " Learning to forgive" .. I've always thought myself as a person who can easily forgive but never forgets.. but not when I had encountered with a recent incident that I came to know that there's this girl who's been saying things which aren't true about me and parents.. I was way beyond furious.. I was cursing her when I came to know what she said.. but it didn't make any good for me. Then, I realized that, I cannot have this rage inside of me, it's killing me slowly literally! so, as much as I hate her, Im learning to forgive her.

Nobody says it's easy to forgive someone, some may think that it’s easier said than done, but forgiveness is like any other process. It takes time as well as willingness!!

So, I've opened my heart to forgive her though it takes time..

For all I care, I'd want to dispose the feeling of hatred towards her and I know
I can't have the rage inside of me cause I WANT TO LIVE A HAPPY LIFE. I don't want
to live my life holding onto grudges and rages on other human beings.

I know I don't deserve to be forever haunted by the hurt and anger, thus, i'm gonna leave the punishment to their own conscience.

So, I'm learning to forgive.. and I have to agree to this saying "sometimes it is simply easier to forgive"

. Graduation .

2010-10-08T01:09:00.000+08:00

Yeay!

It's official! I'm finally a graduate from Taylor's University School of Hospitality, Tourism and Culinary Arts holding a Bachelor Degree in Tourism Management and Engineering.

So, the Graduation ceremony will be held on the 31st October 2010 at the Lakeside Campus..
(we happen to be the first batch of students graduating at the campus itself. braah!)

Anyway, I'm such a happy gal to know that the good results paid off all my endavours during my study years.

Syukran Allah swt, Thank you Mama & Papa for your prayers, Thank you to all my lecturers for everything - God bless y'all ;)

Merci beaucoup tout le monde!

See y'all on 31st Oct!

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. All those little things .

2010-10-07T23:33:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, it's those little things that matter the most.

And those little things can implicate so much pain.

Correct me if i'm wrong.

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. Note to nemesis .

2010-10-06T21:45:00.001+08:00

I don't want this muthafucking bitch to ruin my much needed holiday.

You know who you are, bitch! Stop saying things that aren't true! That you don't know the head or tail!

Go screw your own life instead of mine!

I know who you are and the more I see you around, the feeling of hatred just grow
even stronger.

I can NEVER forgive a person like you, never will.

So, take my advice, don't talk to me or you'll pay the consequences.

I won't hesitate even a little to confront you if I happen to know you say things that aren't true AGAIN!

Think before you even say something! Stupid bitch!

Yes, you should NEVER judge a book by it's cover!

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. One day of every month .

2010-09-22T01:32:00.000+08:00

There's just one day of every month where I'll stay up until after midnight and cry over small things..

Oh woman! Is that even normal? Yes to me and it is also particularly because of pms thingy.

Im done now.

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. Rudeness, anyone? .

2010-09-08T00:28:00.000+08:00

I can never ever tolerate rudeness, like when you're in midst of a conversation.

It is appropriate to look at the person while you're speaking to him/her, don't go facing the wall when you're even still talking to that person. I'll consider that as a rude gesture. It's just annoying. Seriously, don't you think so?!

If you don't feel like talking to that person then screw it, don't even bother to look up to him/her and try to come up with a conversation?!

If you're no chatterbox, then seal your lips and make no sound! :x

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. Twitter .

2010-09-05T02:19:00.000+08:00

I'm officially a Twitter addict, not a single day that I don't tweet 'bout anything.

Doesn't matter anything or anywhere, I'll surely tweet something.

I will feel I'm so cut off from the world without Twitter even just for a day ( that crazy?! ) but it feeds me unparalleled information from anyone I follow.

I just hope to see more of my friends will create Twitter account for themselves.

It's fab to see if they're in it, see yous! :)

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. FOR SALE .

2010-08-18T11:16:00.020+08:00

In the midst of spring cleaning my closet, I realized Ive got too many clothes, some have never been worn before. Only two of them have been worn (at most twice), but have all been cleaned and in mint condition.

I love all of these, they are all so nice (Otherwise I wouldn’t have bought them!). But I need to trim my overflowing wardrobe and let some go.

Here are the clothes that's up for sale. There are relatively NEW and I’m selling them all at a discounted price.

There are 6 here up for grabs. :)

Forever 21 Tunic Spaghetti (Magenta)
NEVER WORN
Selling for : RM 40.00
Size : S

Flowery Tank Top (Orange)
NEVER WORN
Selling for : RM 25.00
Size : Free Size

Lollypop Green Dress
NEVER WORN
Selling for : RM 30.00
Size : Free Size

MNG Suit Cardigan (Pink)
NEVER WORN
Selling for : RM 35.00
Size : S

Butterfly Blouse (Purplish)
Worn twice
Selling for : RM 20.00
Size : Free Size (Fits up to UK size 12)

Abstract Green Blouse
Worn twice
Selling for : RM 15.00
Size : S

If you would like to buy any of them, pls email me at amyliabardan@yahoo.com

Delivery charges: RM 6 for Peninsular Malaysia and RM 8 for Sabah & Sarawak.

If any of you would like to opt for Pos Ekspress, kindly pls let me know.

Delivery will be immediately after payment clears.

Thank you & Happy Shopping ladies! :)

. I'm back .

2010-08-16T23:56:00.000+08:00

I've been long gone. Been really occupied for the last two months.

College. Final exams. Internship. And now, I'm job hunting.

There's so much to write, if only time permits.

I'll scribble some time soon bloggie.

xx

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. Bye bye Taylor's! .

2010-06-06T15:52:00.001+08:00

Good luck to all the BD27/28 students for the final exams tomorrow.

We can do it!

Cheers!

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. I dream of you .

2010-06-01T19:11:00.002+08:00

*drools*

where in Malaysia I can get these delicious cuties! I heard godiva is selling one macaron for Rm 16, for barely a size of the 50 cent coin. that's sorta crazy.

but im craving for you, cuties! sighh.

. Tell me how to fix it .

2010-05-26T17:38:00.001+08:00

It's heart wrenching to watch the relationship that we've built, nurtured and loved so much
gradually will come to an end.

I feel so helpless. I don't know where we went wrong....

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2010-05-24T15:12:00.000+08:00

Follow me on twitter, amyliabardan.

. Hello, is it me you're looking for? .

2010-05-24T00:21:00.000+08:00

long long long gone.

i miss filling you up,bloggie.

so many things happened and yet I don't have the time to record it down here.

will write in something soon. hang on. :)

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. according to me .

2010-04-19T14:59:00.002+08:00

The most unpredictable and confusing mystery in the world is a woman's heart.

I withstand that not only women are full of mysteries. so do men.

equally the same. ain't we? haha.

. Dont stop believing, hold on to that feeeeling .

2010-04-17T13:12:00.003+08:00

Glee cast live on Oprah's! Mmmkays, this song is such a pickmeupper! :)

Enjoy! :D

. Thank You, Lord .

2010-04-16T16:40:00.001+08:00

Happy moments, praise God. Difficult moments, seek God. Painful moments, trust God. Every moment, thank God.

. Tuesday .

2010-04-15T21:47:00.001+08:00

Yes, I can be unpredictable at times.

. Long silence .

2010-04-14T20:55:00.002+08:00

long silence.

ive been busy, as usual.

struggling to cope up with my studies, to finish up assignments on time, to finish up my excruciating dissertation, oh yea, balancing everything together.

i miss you, bloggie.

will write in more frequent okay. :)

. Untitled .

2010-04-01T00:51:00.001+08:00

It always sounds easy on others cause they're not going through of what I'm going through!

But I'm no quitter!

I ain't giving up, at least not again for this time.

I'm no fighter but I'll do whatever it takes.

So, I ain't gonna walk away instead I'm gonna keep my head up high.

You partially made me who I am today, so, never complain!

End the crap.

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. March .

2010-04-01T00:45:00.001+08:00

The month of March has been kind and great!

Though, goodbye March

Hello April! I'm dying!

Lol.

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. Still .

2010-03-30T23:07:00.001+08:00

Keep holding on.

I will.

Hang on Amylia, it will all end very soon.

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. I miss you, girl .

2010-03-27T01:51:00.001+08:00

Maksu miss you lah, Iris sayang.

Hope to see you on Sunday!

xoxo

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. I'm back! .

2010-03-20T01:12:00.001+08:00

Back to reality!

Big 'D' welcomes me home! :(

Gag, sigh, it's time.. yes, it's time.

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. Paris .

2010-03-15T03:53:00.001+08:00

I'm in Paris!! ;)

And I'm lovin' Paris!

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. A picture is worth a thousand words .

2010-02-28T00:57:00.001+08:00

Finally, once and for all, I got myself a proper camera. It's just that I need practice on how to use and understand the camera.

no S90, no G11.
I'm quite sad that I'm not buying a camera from my favorite brand, the one that i've always trust and patronize.

The competition was really close between canon and panasonic.
however, when I reconsiled of which was better in performing their duty and had the best features. Panasonic has it all and it cost me a bomb too. *grimace*

So, I welcome my new baby semi-slr panasonic fz35. =)
I'm happy to have you around, no regrets!

Hope you'll serve me well. Haha.

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. Je vous adore! .

2010-02-26T15:48:00.001+08:00

Famous places to visit/do in Paris;

1. Eiffel Tower
2. The Lourve
3. Sacre Coeur
4. Arc de Triomphe
5. Notre Dame de Paris
6. Champs Elyees
7. Pompidou
8. The Opera
9. Moulin Rouge
10. Seine River Cruise
11. Versailles

Where to do shopping?
Along the streets of Paris. Galarie Lafayette is a must visit department store! Its just as good as Harrods in the UK.

oui oui. ;)

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. Pick one, I dont mind whichever .

2010-02-21T14:55:00.003+08:00

Flatter me, and I may not believe you. Criticize me, and I may not like you. Ignore me, and I may not forgive you. Encourage me, and I may not forget you.

. Terrified .

2010-02-20T00:53:00.000+08:00

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first tine
And the last time
In my only life, life

Lyrics by Kara Dioguardi.

Wonderful song, indeed.

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. Sometimes, giving in is never easy .

2010-02-18T00:30:00.001+08:00

I'm not in to it, neither does my heart. I should just move on and never look back. It's always easier said than done.

I want to leave it so badly but guess what's stopping me?

Those bittersweet memories that are burning fiercely inside me, my mind, my heart.

I know I don't need it and I just need time to erase it.

There's nothing wrong with it and nothing wrong with me but we just don't need each other either.

Deep sigh.

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. I shall not wait, no more, no more .

2010-02-17T01:01:00.000+08:00

I feel a pang of regret.

Oh yes, I do.

CNY holiday has officially ended yesterday. Now, I'm back with my dissasterous college life. Happy to pronounce that I'm swamped with assignments and my only dissertation, my my.

No matter how exceptional those reasons can be, I should have started doing it earlier. Errhh?!

and I've vowed not to waste my time, no more.

Screw it, good night.

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. Life .

2010-02-10T23:52:00.000+08:00

Life is one rollercoaster ride, it takes you places you've never been before - emotionally, physically and mentally.

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. oh love! .

2010-02-08T00:13:00.000+08:00

I often wonder why love sometimes can be so complicated or is it the people who makes it complicated?! it's somehow a subjective matter to me.

I often too tell myself that I'm quite a complicated person, I appreciate the feeling of love; to be in love and to be loved. Either way I enjoy it but when it comes to my love relationship, it doesn't really work. I can tell that I have been really good and supportive gf to my partner but no, it doesn't work the other way round. I've been thinking a lot lately, deep thought of not wanting to continue my love relationship, ohh the other word for it is : break up. I suddenly feel the urge to do it and hell, i feel that now it's like so not the time to be in love, have bf and etc. I don't know! Probably, I'm just too tired of enduring the relationship for more than 3 years now. break up is an option but Im not so sure if im ready for this to happen again in my life. But on the second thought, I supposed that's the best for us.

I don't want to be in a relationship that I often feel that i'm left out by my own bf. Haha. It's not bout the attention. I had more than enough. I don't like being pampered too and please, I'm not even close to gedik. I'm an independent babe. That's for sure. I just feel that we have nothing left to cherish and share anymore. That happens when either one has lose their interest on his/her partner.

I'm all good being single. I'll be more than okay.

I promise, we'll do good without each other.

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. sweet dreams .

2010-02-06T21:55:00.002+08:00

I wish to have these stickers on my bedroom wall. Where can I get 'em eyy?

. Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I .

2010-02-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

Do you know what's worth fighting for?

When it's not worth dying for!

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. Gone, going .

2010-02-03T22:07:00.004+08:00

Sent in my internship application letter on Monday to Air France. I didn't make it, unfortunately, they have accommodate enough interns for the date that Taylor's had set.
Euww. there goes my dream! Air France! Arggggh!

I'm gonna try my luck for Dubai this time. fingers crossed.

. I literally don't care anymore .

2010-02-01T22:16:00.002+08:00

why on earth would I care for someone who literally doesn't care for self.

please.

just buzz off.

. Pretty, please! .

2010-01-29T23:15:00.002+08:00

I want 'em. What's with me and blue these days?! I had just bought a blue shirt today and here I am again with blue hues. <3

. France Trip .

2010-01-28T21:50:00.002+08:00

Hoorays!

Okay, now, I am deliriously excited of this France Trip!! Name list is out and so, I'll be going with the first batch, thanks to Mr Frederic!! I've made into the first group! The first batch will be departing on the 5th of March! Woohoo!

Paris, Foix, Toulouse, Here I come!
HAHA.

. When a man gets on my nerves, I start to cuss! .

2010-01-26T21:37:00.005+08:00

To TutTimun.

What kind of binatang are you eh? you're one biased beast. you're ugly, bitter and fuck, you're the filthiest man I have ever met on earth. Shit.

You suck! Yes, you mongrel!

. Dessertation .

2010-01-26T21:22:00.004+08:00

Time and tide wait for no man.

When will I ever learn that my time now is precious and I will have not enough time to complete my dissertation if I tend to procrastinate.

There's a voice my in head said this : I've been really busy since last week, been really busy with my resume, application letters, job hunting and more.

I replied : I'm certainly aware of that too but that doesn't mean your dissertation isn't important. It is equally important as your studies.

The voice : Sigh. I wish I didn't enrolled myself into all this trouble.

I : Exactly. I wish I did not. But, what the hell? I have like merely 4 months more to kill and then, I'm done. I'm so done with studies. Then, I smiled. I can do this. Well, at least I know I can bear for another few months. What say you?

The voice : Of course, you can! Stay optimist, motivated and please do not procrastinate.

I : InsyaAllah.

. Je crois .

2010-01-24T23:37:00.000+08:00

Je veux ton amour et je veux ta revanche!

I want your loving and I want your revenge!

You and me could write a bad romance.

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. Final internship .

2010-01-22T00:13:00.002+08:00

Okay, so around the 7th June 2010, I'm bound to go for the final internship in order for me to graduate my bachelor's degree! So, it's clearly understandable that this final internship is immensely important. Gah!

I am tad frustrated as this time I gotta search up for the internship placements by myself. From A to Z.

The first thing came through my mind was ; where should I do the final one?! As in domestic or international.

Well, at first I had the idea of doing it here, in KL. BUT, great offers came up to me, the career center suggested my friends and I to do our last internship namely in these places/countries; Dubai, Maldives, Vietnam...
I was thrilled to receive the news to be able to work in Dubai if I'm chosen! I guess it's worth a try to work in Dubai, also, the career center guy told us we could actually build up our career there too. Yeah, who knows?! I guess I am up for the career opportunity from Dubai if the chances are there. :)

So, yes, I'm gonna send in my job application letter and see what are the chances!

I guess Maldives is no longer in my list, I'm just so in love with the idea of working in Dubai. Haha. Anyway, I'm just gonna apply for a job in Air France too, just an alternative. I've always wanted to build up my career in any airlines company I supposed it's a good platform for me, aite?

See if I get any replies later, I'll definitely keep you posted.

Good luck to me!

To be continued...

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. I can't take my eyes of you .

2010-01-20T23:57:00.000+08:00

Knowing you was a mistake,

I wish I never knew you.

I wish I never did.

My bad, my mistake.

But I still can't take my eyes off you and I'd still love to see your face one day.

I do. I really do.

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. Mr X and Ms Y .

2010-01-18T23:23:00.000+08:00

Ohh Mr X! Why are you so mysterious!

I'm sorry it ended up this way but I can't help my feelings too.

I have the strong urge to meet you one day, oh yes, Mr X, and I really mean it.

sigh!

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. Back to college! .

2010-01-18T00:11:00.000+08:00

Back on track!

First class starts at 9am!

See ya!

Oh yes, at the new lakeside campus! ;>

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. My ramblings .

2010-01-16T21:48:00.002+08:00

never chase three things in life; train, bus and men..

cause one goes and another comes.

haha.

says who?!

moi!

. I know I want you .

2010-01-12T00:54:00.001+08:00

Oh yes, I want yous!
Next on the list is the canon camera!

I'm still comparing these two cameras, read the reviews bout these two and seems like canon s90 is giving me good reasons to buy it but the budget that matters now.

I don't know, will figure out bout the cash later. Let me just drool on these two at the moment. :$

. Hush hush .

2010-01-09T23:46:00.000+08:00

I wanna sleep but I really can't shut my eyes cause my mind refuse to stop thinking.

Sigh.

Please, it's getting late and I'm really tired, so, let's relax and sleep.

Hush hush.

. Pretty, please take me there .

2010-01-07T23:56:00.001+08:00

I smell a perfect getaway yet to be visited before the college commences.

I hope so.

Fingers crossed.

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. swoons .

2010-01-05T21:35:00.003+08:00

Exotic, sexy and vibrant!
These gorgeous kaftans are designed by Dato' Farah Khan.
I supposed she's my favorite designer apart from Amer Luqman and Dato' Tom Abang Saufi, fashion designers from a country of our own - Malaysia.

Drools. Sigh. Ecstatic.

I look forward for these pretty clothes some time soon? maybe in 2 years time? LOL.

. Have you got yours? .

2010-01-05T15:58:00.001+08:00

So I pondered if I'm able to achieve the year 2010 resolutions of mine.

At first, I thought what's the big deal about having resolutions this year for one-self but then again, i've read somewhere where about having/making resolutions at the beginning of the year is a great start also the first step to achieve your ideal life and ideal self.

Hence, I'm still drawing up my resolutions carefully and hoping it will not be the same as it all were last year where I break them almost immediately. Knowing myself, I know it's virtually impossible for me to accomplish all of what I've drawn for myself but who knows if things go different this year? I hope!

Cheers! Good luck to me!

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. Hi stranger, I've missed you .

2010-01-05T00:05:00.000+08:00

Where have you been?!
Where were you when I needed you much!

Where are you?
Please show up, I've missed you, I really do. :(

Please don't just disappear, just don't!

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. Yoda's .

2010-01-04T16:18:00.000+08:00

Fear is the path to dark side, fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering.

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. Hello 2010! .

2010-01-01T00:41:00.000+08:00

Everyone around the globe welcomes the new year of 2010!

Happy new year folks!

;-)

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. Chronicles of 2009 .

2009-12-31T19:19:00.005+08:00

Another year has passed by, let's welcome the brand new year and bids goodbye to 2009. the bittersweet memories 2009 of mine are compiled altogether for my own keeping.

let's take a good recap what were the episodes of the year 2009 in my life.

March/April 2009 - Wonderful trip to Turkey with the fellow classmates. ♥

May 2009 - The family welcomes little Iris, as our latest addition to the family,
the new bundle of joy! and we love you to bits, baby I!

June 2009 - Completed my Higher Diploma in Tourism Management & Engineering. I made it once again and it paid me off though the result wasn't like what I've expected it to be but it wasn't so bad. deep sigh.

July 2009 - I turned 21. Yes, 21 candles were blown. Nothing fancy nor special this birthday as Mom was sick, recovering from her cataract surgery. But that's okay mom, we'll do a big one next year. Yes, A VERY BIG one. HAHA. :D

September 2009 - This year's raya was in Malaysia. Everyone gathered in Kampung. I supposed this raya was boring. haha.

November 2009 - The most anticipated movie was released - New Moon Movie was released. I can't believe this is part of my most notable event despite the movie was indeed flat. Aside from that, I personally think, The Time Traveler's wife was another great movie of the year. Ehh. No, i think the book was good. :)

December 2009 - A 4 days trip to Medan, Indonesia. overall, the trip was very relaxing but minus the part where we got cheated. bloody con man! which really blew me off.
I'm still on my holidays though, two weeks more to go. inhale. exhale. i hate the fact that im still studying, also i dislike the fact that one day, when i've completed all my studies, i have to work to earn the pennies to travel, shopping, to pay off debts and etc. but, i know i'm gonna love my job when the time comes. what a statement!

Though, mentioned above were all the notable events nevertheless the bitter part was there were bad episodes in between of all these happenings, and of course death is inevitable, the king of pop dies, Arwah Yasmin has left us too also a few of my close relatives have left the family forever. Semoga ruh-ruh mereka dicucuri rahmat. Amin.

My wishes to all ;

firstly, i would like to convey my apologies to everyone who knows me (vice versa), sorry for any of my wrongdoings, transgressions. my apologies from the bottom of my heart. Everyone makes mistakes and I'm always happily fixing myself to be a better person, not perfect, just better. :)

Secondly, last but not least, not forgetting, I wish everyone, A Happy New Year 2010, may the 2010 bring all of us continued good health, happiness and success! Blessed be!

Amin Rb.

XOXO
Amylia Bardan

. I dream of la-la land .

2009-12-29T00:19:00.001+08:00

I'm in need of a perfect getaway after the new year,

I need to break free,

Someone,

Please,

Let's go for a leisure holiday!

:-D

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. Rambles .

2009-12-25T00:12:00.001+08:00

Should I pierce my nose?
Should I pierce my navel?

OR

Should I just not pierce?

Haha.

But I've been longing to pierce my nose.

*shrugs*

I might get one some day.

Rawrr.

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. When my world doesn't have enough cash .

2009-12-23T00:27:00.000+08:00

Groans.

I'm officially broke for the month of December 2009,

What a great way to end the year! Lol.

Coach sunglasses = myr 5xx
Levi's jeans = myr 3xx
Facial care essentials = myr 2xx

Am I that wise in spending things? I often doubt that.
But whaaat to do, I need these.

Darn! I need to stop this madness!

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. When I know the sun still shines .

2009-12-21T18:43:00.001+08:00

I wish for brighter and happier days ahead. I'm ready to embrace the new year of 2010.

x

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. when my world starts to collide .

2009-12-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

I'm praying for better days to happen.

Je ne sais pas, tres mal.

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. Flip the bird, bitch!

2009-12-20T00:41:00.000+08:00

It's unbelievable how this person can be such a nuisance to me!

The one who loves to procastinate and keep me waiting all the time

The one who expects me to give
h** all the details of what, when, how, why and WTF?!

Oh god!! I'm so effin pissed!

Yeah, excuse my french.

. Of France .

2009-12-18T18:50:00.000+08:00

Finally, the 2010 academic calendar has been published and the France trip takes place in the month of March!

Aww, I ain't sure if I ought to be all excited bout the trip. Maybe I will be but that would be later.

Cheers!

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. Hoorays .

2009-12-14T10:13:00.000+08:00

Introducing you, The new Taylor's Lakeside Campus!

Pretty big ain't it?

Me love the environment and atmoshphere too!

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. gdbye Medan .

2009-12-10T21:44:00.000+08:00

Spending my last nite in Medan. Aww!

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. The time has come .

2009-12-06T02:54:00.000+08:00

I just can't endure the pain anymore,
You may go now.

and off I go again with a broken heart that takes time to heal.

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. I want these .

2009-12-06T01:01:00.000+08:00

A new pair of denim jeans
Sunglasses
Winter jacket

:) :) :)

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. Without a doubt .

2009-12-04T02:02:00.000+08:00

Love is intensified by absence.

Agreed.

. Yes, No, I don't know! .

2009-12-01T23:11:00.000+08:00

No, I don't want to know whatever that you're up to!
Whatever plans you're having in your mind!

I just don't want to know anymore, cause all I know is that whatever you're planning to do is just not worth my time!

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. Bali, anyone? .

2009-11-29T01:30:00.000+08:00

I'm planning for the first trip for year 2010..which is to Bali! Anyone?! hehe! :)))

xo

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. Of new moon .

2009-11-24T21:53:00.001+08:00

Watched the new moon movie online, haish, *I know, I'm pretty impatient for it to screen in Malaysia!*

The movie was not bad! Haha! I was surprised with what I've just said too but the movie wasn't like what I've expected it to be, like what I've read in the novel.. I expected more actions between the cold ones and the wolves to be in the movie a lot but there were little actions in the movie! And Edward really looked pale, unattractive and so much like zombie.. Loved the way he looked in twilight, he looks so much better there.. But undeniably, Jacob black looks way much hotter and better!! haha! biceps all over! ;)

But I'm gonna share more thoughts of mine later once I've watched it again here in malaysia! Okay, holiday, come fast, I need you so badly.

. love hurts .

2009-11-23T22:28:00.004+08:00

Well, this isnt the first time that I've been hearing this quote "love hurts" .
I agreed much with it but to fall in love or be in love is something that everyone wants to feel and experience. To be in love or to feel in love is inevitable to me, it can be beautiful or horrifying.. Or maybe both at the same time. It hurts to the maximum when someone you loved being apart from you and whatsoever other excuses or reasons they might give us. It's just excruciating.

But I believe that, nobody in this world would say no to love, again. Everyone deserves a second chance, do they? I do and I believe others do too.

Dont give up on love. Cause you'll never know what awaits you. The perfect man or woman, probably? I dont know but never give up on love. It's all in the hand of God.

Open up your heart and believe that you'll meet the one someday, somewhere, some time soon.

:)

. l'examen .

2009-11-22T21:50:00.001+08:00

Two days more to go!!

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. Clair de lune .

2009-11-21T00:29:00.000+08:00

I feel at ease listening to Debussy's.

Hmmm, I feel so calm. ;-)

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. =} .

2009-11-18T23:30:00.001+08:00

I'm contemplating to get another designer handbag for myself. My budget allows me to get one BUT!!! Big 'NO' from my mom! Sighssss! I know, the handbag would cost me my two months of allowance. I'll just have to restrain myself from buying that bag. Sighs! It's so pretty yet so costly.. Can't say much, if I want a mercedes, I have to pay the price of a Mercedes not the price of Honda or Toyota and likewise for this handbag. Huhuhu :-((

Looks like, I can do all the shopping during this coming year end sale! Hmmm! I can see there's a long list coming that has all that I want.

Sheesh, when will I ever learn on how to spend less in spite of the current plight of economics. sighs. I'm learning though on how to spend wisely, Im much more thrifty these days! Haha! Look who's talking, just had the thought of buying a designer handbag and now claiming myself as a wise spender. Haha.

I'm in between though but most of the time lose in the battle of necessary and necessity.

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. my life has it's crazy flows .

2009-11-17T01:03:00.001+08:00

You see, life is a crazy thing, there will be good times and there will be bad times but it's just inevitable, and what I've learned is, I should be optimist in every possible ways regardless what's the plight or whatever in between.

(:

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. Sorry seems to be the ... word .

2009-11-15T23:22:00.000+08:00

Sorry doesn't help, the wounds are not healing, not even an inch.

these days, the men are getting on my nerves, when will they stop putting so much pain in me?! Sighs. Not blaming all, just three to four of them.

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. I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing .

2009-11-14T20:50:00.002+08:00

best movie of year 2009. =) the novel is pretty much awesome too.

. Oblivious .

2009-11-14T01:48:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, there's always such things that go haywire in a relationship. Such things that I don't fathom. And I simply couldn't care less anymore.

Bye!

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. Oui ou Non? .

2009-11-13T01:08:00.001+08:00

Should I or shouldn't I?

I'm contemplating to master the French Language.

C'est une belle langue, oui?
Je suis d'accord c'est vrai.

Euhh, Comment?!

*Smacks on the forehead*

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. till we meet again .

2009-11-11T23:23:00.000+08:00

Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

. Meet me halfway, okay?.

2009-11-11T00:10:00.000+08:00

Can you meet me halfway, right at the borderline?

That's where I'm gonna wait for you.

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. You belong with me .

2009-11-09T00:04:00.001+08:00

How I wish you were mine. Oh!

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. Dissertation .

2009-11-07T00:42:00.000+08:00

I wished it taste as sweet as the word 'dessert' or literally 'dissert'.. same pronunciation though.. but two different meanings.. Crap! My dessert-tation is a disaster! I've had enough of reading journals! Well, it's just not for the sake of reading.. I gotta analyze what's the journal all about and how it helps in my topic.. No joke, each journal may have up to hundreds of pages..and my eyes are tired! It's pointless if I tend to read without understanding anything. Everything about it is driving me insane! *exasperated*, grunting and more grunts!

. Medan?! .

2009-11-05T23:06:00.001+08:00

Well, I'm still thinking of spending the holidays by traveling to somewhere. Bangkok is sort of out from my list due to the expensive ticket price! Too costly! What can I expect, I can't be traveling by airplane with any cheaper price than rm 400 if I tend to book it last minute and especially during super peak season, it's December! Hello!! Sighs!

Oh guess what, mom asked me today if I've ever thought of traveling to Medan?! Medan is located in north of Sumatra, Indonesia.. famous for it's absolutely beautiful scenery of lake toba.. I've only been to some big cities in central java and padang.. so I thought why not, traveling to Medan sounds great too! It's within my budget and the ticket is way much cheaper than Bangkok. Well, I'll make up my mind in a day or two. I guess Medan is now in the list!

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. You .

2009-11-05T01:09:00.001+08:00

How could I possibly miss someone whom I've never met.

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. Of jollyday .

2009-11-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

Ish, i nak pergi ke Kota Bangkok tapi tiada tiket murah lagi ... Saya sedih! Saya rindu Kota itu, rindu pada weekend cathuchak market, pada semua benda disana dan terutamanya sekali pada makanan seperti som tam, tom yum, pad thai, nasi kuning, tiram goreng, pulut manga, ais krim kelapa, jelly kelapa dan pelbagai jenis manisan lagi! Haaiz. Saya teringin gila nak shopping di platinum, central world, kampheang phet..baju baju yang sangat lawa, cantik, menawan dan murah ya raabi! sighs! Tiket mahal! Should I go or not?! grrrrrh! :(

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♥

2009-10-28T21:42:00.002+08:00

* she's beautiful, ain't she :) *

. of robes and scrolls .

2009-10-27T17:43:00.005+08:00

* meet the graduates! ohh, and i was the one in jeans not the graduation robe :( *

Date. : 25th October
Venue : Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre

" Congratulations to Batch 28 on your achievement! " :)

. Happy birthday, papa! .

2009-10-24T18:13:00.002+08:00

* cupcakes, courtesy of Kak Nana ♥ *

Wishing my dearest papa a blessed birthday! May you be blessed with good health, long life and longevity. Thank you so much for everything that you've done for our family. You're the best and we love you to bits!

:*

From all of us,
Your precious wife and kids